Those who fall even somewhat outside the boundaries of “normal” are automatically assumed to secretly carry the weight of shame with regard to their appearance, and through these shows we engage in a public demonstration of pity – urging them to love because they are “deserving” and “inspiring” rather than just fellow humans.It is these attitudes that make a production company approach me despite my essay having spoken about the assumption that my vitiligo makes me inherently ugly and requires someone special to look past it.However, while some of my interactions with people can be said to be frustrating, I’ve never had real personal insecurities about my vitiligo, and especially not with regard to dating.I was curious about the offer to be part of what was described as an educational and uplifting documentary casting its second season, but during the phone conversation it appeared to be the case that they wanted to tell a story of me from a starting point of insecurity, self-doubt, and struggle.But if a job wanted me to, say, try a smoky eye and cover the vitiligo around my eye, I wouldn’t have a problem with that. My lips are not naturally purple.” They did alter it, but it’s not that big of a deal. It wasn’t so much a conscious effort of me trying to see it as something beautiful, but more so accepting myself for the way that I am.Not to say that it’s a positive or a negative, but just to say it’s me, and I love me, so everyone else is going to have to deal with it. I almost never realize it unless someone’s being super obnoxious and directly staring at me long enough for me to catch their eye. I know what I look like, so I know what people are looking at, but it just doesn’t faze me.Everybody thinks they have something wrong with them.
Obviously in wider society people do sometimes react badly – the charity Changing Faces was specifically set up because of this bias, and it’s an area that need change.I loved reading magazines about the entertainment world. What Bow Wow does right now—that’s what I wanted to do.Even as a little girl, my mom never wanted me to watch BET, but when I was at my grandparents’ house, and my older cousins were there and I could watch it, I was infatuated with the idea that I could one day be a DJ or the host of a show.She told London Live how people "often look at my hands and my face and then wonder why my hands are white and my face is mixed race."“As much as I hate saying that I am different, I am a little bit different,” she said. It’s something I see in the mirror everyday.”“Growing up, there was the odd occasion when kids might be a little spiteful and call me names like zebra, cow or penguin – anything that looks black and white,” she added.According to the Vitiligo Society, the cause can be genetic but stress, sunburn or a cut can also trigger the condition.